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When Was The Last Time We Shared a Meal

Robin Gow

I wish I had told you to stay. Turned the planes

into folded paper and asked to open your mouth.


Our wooden tongues paddled in a water world.

I made a jar just for you so I could remember


what it felt like to be loved so violently. Throwing rocks

out the window at each other. I tell you to


break out the step ladder. We get in a car bound

towards heaven. You take everything—each motion


a different kind of handful. I want to learn to not blame you

for what you carried away and what you could not.


I hang pictures of yours in my apartment. Have dinner

with your ghost. Think of that café we split


a sugar crusted wild berry scone. It was warm in our fingers

and steam told us we would so soon be ghosts to each other.


In almost a year I’ll tell you I am searching a different story

from our bodies but it will be past and the rain will freeze


and I’ll rummage in the freezer for mixed veggies

to talk to. Let me feed you just this once.


Then you come feed me.

Robin Gow is a trans poet and young adult author. They are the author of Our Lady Of Perpetual Degeneracy (Tolsun Books 2020) and the chapbook Honeysuckle (Finishing Line Press 2019). Their first young adult novel, A Million Quiet Revolutions is slated for publication winter 2022 with FSG. Gow's poetry has recently been published in POETRY, New Delta Review, and Washington Square Review. Gow received their MFA from Adelphi University where they were also an adjunct instructor. Gow is a managing editor at The Nasiona, MAYDAY, and Doubleback Books.

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